my lil' sis

she is four-years-old kid . she is pretty . she is vigorous .she is adorable . she is naughty . she is Jessica .

she loves blue . she loves supermarket . she loves playing with water and shampoo . she loves being outside . she loves watching tv . she takes her shirt immediately off when it gets smudge . she loves to stay awake . she loves to bother my dad . she loves pet . she loves motorcycle .

she hates "salak" . she hates mellow songs . she hates being kissed . she hated being combed . she hates being hugged . she hates orange . she hates going home . she hates mustache . she hates sea . she hates heat .

she's got ADD . what is that ? i don't really know . well . it's kind of autism maybe . but in a small scale . Attention deficit hyperactivity disorder . she can't be focus . she doesn't see you in your eyes . she moves all the time . she gets angry suddenly . she speaks outer-space language .

but she understand your words . she remember things ; like route , places , stuff ,etc . she knows how to get our hearts . she can be asked . she can sing . she knows faces . she knows when she's being scold . she takes our hands to get some help . i know that she is clever . genius actually . but she is a little bit abnormal . i love her . i want her to be normal .

if she were normal , she will be the cutest and the smartest girl I've ever known .

caramelized crepe

i made a caramel crepes this morning . it was really delicious . but the appearance was not good at all . it was my fault after all . but you can make it better at your own kitchen .

ingredients :
*egg (1)
*flour ( 100 grams )
*milk ( 200 ml)
*sugar ( 3 tbs )
*salt ( 0,5 tbs )

steps :
1. mix all the ingredients together but milk . pour the milk slowly and you will get a watery batter.
2. pour white sugar to the pan . let it melt .
3. at the other space of the pan . pour a small amount of the batter with spoon and make a thin layer of it .
4.move the crepes to the caramel and let it be for a while .


enjoy :)

what teenagers feel is what i feel

do you ever feel that you are like a chewing gum ?
people leave you when they thought you are no longer useful .
well . that's what people do . don't be afraid . you are not alone . i feel the same way .

are you miss popular in your school ?
so , you like being looked at and show how beautiful you are ?
it's very nice being you right ? people know your name . other girls envy with your new hairstyle , maybe . guys chasing for you . everybody knows you . are you happy ?
ask your self .

are you a geek at school ?
you are the smartest among your friends ? do you take a thousand courses ?
are you your teacher's favourite ?
never fail in the test ? no time to do anything but study ?
is this all what are you looking for ?

are you the limelighter ? you know , attention seeker .
you make fools of your self just to make the whole class laugh ?
you don't care about assignment and all you think is having fun at school .
so . do you like your life now ?

there's a million other classes that determine you in a particular groups .
are you happy with your possition ? or maybe . you're frustrating ?

don't be . read this first !


hey , miss popular . admit it . it's noot good to be you . you have to be very careful about your image you know . when you fail or you do something wrong , they will speak anything bad about you .
and maybe . you have friends that treat you very well . do they accept you because they care for you ? or maybe . they just wanna be popular like you ?
no one is real . they are fake .
have you ever think about those outcasts ?
they really wanna be like you . but they can't . so , you need to thank god of what you have . and start to make friends with everybody . you might find somebody that works with you . and trust me, you might find your self laughing togheter . it was something what you never tought right ? having fun with geeks ? nobodies ?
oh really ? yea . they're funny . be different :) let people think that you are the friendly and pretty girl . because that's what you are .

if you were geek . trust me . don't be to over it . do you notice that your social skill is in danger ?
maybe you're genius . but you can't interact with people . you don't know how to break the ice with strangers . your personality is boring .
are you really get upset when you got bad scores ? are you too embarrased to admit that you are failed now ? you need to keep your head held high pal . it is just a small failuire. don't get to be so down . show them what are you made of then .

perfection is boring . your weakness is beautiful .
when you're down . keep your head up .
smile . and prove them wrong .
life is not about what you will be . but it is about how that you be something .
don't waste your time with regrets . people make mistakes .
so what if i got the remedial test ?
so what if i did'nt get that job ?
so what if she rejected your love ?

we are not julliet . we don't drink venomous thing .
we are smarter than her . we'll get the better romeo .
think wisely . there's no need to be so sick .
we are strong , people .
stay positive :)

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i hope it can help you . enjoy . leave comments and critics if you wanna share something :)
gbu .

teenage problem solving . the end .

mom and dad

mellow mellow . nangis lagi nangis lagi .
sedih banged . masa gw ampe berasa kalo gw itu kurang kasih sayang . gw punya masalah komunikasi sih ama mereka .

dimarahin mulu . padahal gw gag ngapa-ngapain . stress dia . sakid terus , banyak pikiran .
saking sensitif nya , gw berasa kalo gw itu gag dianggep . akhirna gw message mereka gini :


for my dad :
"i have biological mother and economical father "

maksudnyaa : gw itu punya mama kandung yang cuma numpang ngelahirin gw , sama papa yg cuma mikirin makan ama sekolah gw . gag lebih .

then he reply :
"miss grumpy , see what you can do for this family . practice it ."

gw bales :
" i pray for all of you . i got scholarship to help you . i study hard so that you don't have to see my counseling teacher . i never get mad when you did'nt give me anything for my birthday . i understand you . but just for a second . can you understand me ? it's different to treat a child and a teenage ."

trus akhirna dia sok asik aja ngbrol ama gua . hahahah .

n buat mami . i wanna tell you my school life ! i got a crush on someone . and i really want you to know . but somehow . i don't believe you on the same time . why ? i don't know .

dear life, thank you for this beautiful problems . heheh . god bless my family life and school life pleaasseee .

XOXO
olinee

Jesus , bless him , please .

pernah kan kesel sama bokap atau nyokap u ? rasa na pengen kabur dari rumah . pengen banting - banting barang . pengen teriak- teriak . pengen ngata-ngatain dia sambil nangis . berharap dia bakal minta maaf sama kita dan meluk kita . tapi gw cuma bisa diem . nangis . gw tahan semuanya . gw gag pengen dia tau kalo gw sedih . kalo gw barusan sakit hati gara-gara kata-kata dia .
Gw baru di babtis jadi katholik jadi gw mulai untuk selalu berdoa sebelum makan . bukan sok suci . bukan pura-pura baik . tapi gw bener-bener mau bersyukur . Tuhan masih kasih gw makanan buat hari ini . Tapi bokap malah ngoceh- ngoceh seakan-akan dia bilang kalo bersyukur itu gag ada gunanya . Bokap emang lagi banyak pikiran, gw yakin itu . Dia pasti ngerasa kalo Tuhan itu lagi gag adil sama dia . Mungkin dia udah pernah ngikutin kata-kata gw . Tapi dia ngerasa kalo doa dia um pernah di denger .
Tapi kata-kata dia bikin gw sakit hati . Gua gag suka sifat dia yang selalu ngejelek-jelekin hal yang gua lakuin . Dia gag tau kalo gw selalu berdoa buat dia . Supaya dia selalu sehat . Supaya dia banyak rezeki . Supaya dia bisa seneng-seneng tiap ari dan bisa ngelewatin semua masa-masa susah . Tapi sikap dia seakan gag pernah menghargai . Gw nangis .
Dia gag akan pernah tau kalo Tuhan sebenernya gag pernah ninggalin dia . apa yang bisa gw lakuin supaya dia sadar ? Gw Cuma bisa berdoa .
Gw berdoa supaya bkap sehat . supaya bokap banyak rezeki . supaya bokap bahagia . gw bilang dalam doa gw . gag masalah kalo gw yang sakid . kalo gw yang nangis terus setiap hari . Asal bokap gw bahagia itu aja kok .
Bokap orang yang paling gw sayang di dunia . gw bakal terus rajin blajar . Nilai gw bakal tetep bagus . Gw dapetin semua beasiswa . Walaupun dia gag akan meluk gw dan bilang kalo gw anak yang pinter .
Gw pengen banged di peluk ama dia . Sebelum tidur , dia nyelimutin . nyium gw trus matiin lampu . bilang nite .
Ya udah lah . yang penting gw belajar dua hal hari ini : gw akan slalu bersyukur dan memaafkan . gua akan selalu bersyukur walaupun dalam keadaan susah . dan gw akan memaafkan walaupun dia gag bilang maaf .
Jangan pernah bales kata-kata orang tua . Itu bikin hati mereka sedih . Mereka emang gag selalu bener . Tapi mereka juga gag bener-bener salah . Pasti ada sisi baik yang bisa kita ambil . Jangan pernah sampai kamu menghina orang tua kamu .
Abis nangis ya senyum lagi . Kita masih punya Tuhan dan temen-temen kita kok . GBU .

the #1 song i made .

i made this song because i can't sleep . i was awaken because i slept too much at noon . hehe . 

i was so mad with my ex . so . this song is absolutely NOT ABOUT HIM . he was not inspiring me . 

here it is . i hope you'll like it . 

chord : G D Bm A repeated over and over again .

" i wake up with a smile

i dreamed 'bout you last night .

jumped out from my bed then have a little dance .

i wish it's not just on my mind .

i hope you're here right now .

outside my window , holding roses n then say

i love you 

want you be mine ?

i promis you to always be by your side

oh and i will never gonna let you cry 

monday tuesday everyday 

smile 

bridge : Bm A G D 

oh god please tell me

what should i do now

to make this moment oh perfect yeah perfect

so i pick a smile then hold his hand tight

to sing with him forever and ever 

i love you

and now i'm yours

i promise you ta always be by your side .

and i'll make your day brighter than before 

monday tuesday everyday smile ."

do you like it ? i'll post the video later . and i don't know what the title is . any idea?

what's in my heart

what do you know about me ?
have you ever been in my position ?
do you think it's easy ?

ok . this is real . i have been chased by two guys ( actually , there are more ) who used to be my buddies . we're quiet close and i was so happy back then . i didn't know that they like me since the very start . maybe , because i was so stupid . i didn't look closer . well , it was the past . just face the now . now i know . it's not good . things are change . slowly they began to tell me that they loved me . how could it be?

what should i do? that's the point . should i pretend that i don't know anything ? impossible . should i stay away from them ? i don't want to . i decided to be fair . but they want something more .

what is so special with me? u say that i'm beautiful and extraordinary . there are millions other girls , but why are you so simple minded ?

ok . here is the thing , guy # 1 :

1. i don't really like the way you care . it's too much . it reminds me of my ex sometimes . i was kinda sick of him . soo . excuse that .
2. your point of view is too childish . i don't like it . i'm not the only girl that you would meet in your whole life . it's not as simple as a fairytale . it's not like you're the prince and i'm the princess .
3. u use your heart too much . you look so weak and awful when you say something serious and you were about to cry ( just like that ) . i don't like drama . i'm so sick of drama .
4. something is wierd about you , i don't know . it's just uncomfortable .
5. you are not that reliable . i know you care so much . u say that you'll always be there . but i can't see your presence .
6. your negative thoughts is killing me .
7. i can't find anything special . you are a good guy . a very very good guy . i know . but there is nothing so special . like a sweet apple on the basket of sweet apples .
   

i'm sorry . thank you for loving me . i just want you to be my friend . can you accept that ?

you need to learn something about me :

1. i'm unpredictable .
2. i'm more than just a pretty face . in fact, people love my personality .
3. i dont like something usual . i'm unusual .