what's in my heart

what do you know about me ?
have you ever been in my position ?
do you think it's easy ?

ok . this is real . i have been chased by two guys ( actually , there are more ) who used to be my buddies . we're quiet close and i was so happy back then . i didn't know that they like me since the very start . maybe , because i was so stupid . i didn't look closer . well , it was the past . just face the now . now i know . it's not good . things are change . slowly they began to tell me that they loved me . how could it be?

what should i do? that's the point . should i pretend that i don't know anything ? impossible . should i stay away from them ? i don't want to . i decided to be fair . but they want something more .

what is so special with me? u say that i'm beautiful and extraordinary . there are millions other girls , but why are you so simple minded ?

ok . here is the thing , guy # 1 :

1. i don't really like the way you care . it's too much . it reminds me of my ex sometimes . i was kinda sick of him . soo . excuse that .
2. your point of view is too childish . i don't like it . i'm not the only girl that you would meet in your whole life . it's not as simple as a fairytale . it's not like you're the prince and i'm the princess .
3. u use your heart too much . you look so weak and awful when you say something serious and you were about to cry ( just like that ) . i don't like drama . i'm so sick of drama .
4. something is wierd about you , i don't know . it's just uncomfortable .
5. you are not that reliable . i know you care so much . u say that you'll always be there . but i can't see your presence .
6. your negative thoughts is killing me .
7. i can't find anything special . you are a good guy . a very very good guy . i know . but there is nothing so special . like a sweet apple on the basket of sweet apples .
   

i'm sorry . thank you for loving me . i just want you to be my friend . can you accept that ?

you need to learn something about me :

1. i'm unpredictable .
2. i'm more than just a pretty face . in fact, people love my personality .
3. i dont like something usual . i'm unusual .